Haha, I seriously haven't been on this for a good year. I love blogging when I have the time but sometimes, well, most of the time, I'm so lazy. But today, I have a lot on my mind that I need to express.

Currently listening to "SO INTO YO" - Fabolous Ft. Tamia ~ This song seeeeriously makes me feel sooo nostalgic. I think its because I LOVED this song off in elementary school. Jeez. Anyways, on to the emo stuff.

It's March, aka, 6 more months until the boyfee goes away for 4 years. Ya what? 4 years?? He's in the navy (8) inn the naavvyyy (8) - haha. He's going to be doing his training and whatnot at either VanCity or Nova Scotia. I don't really know the details yet but yup. Honestly, 6 months is still a lengthy time away but I know for a fact it'll be here tomorrow. It always happens. I'm just nervous and scared but still feel strong about us. People do change and that's what scares me. I've never been so happy in my life that I don't want to let him go. I want him to stay. Every little argument that we have here scares me because how are we going to hold up a HELLA long distance relationship? All we have is the internet and the phone. We won't be able to see each other. Urg, I really don't like thinking about the future because it's just going to upset me that's why I don't like taking about it. I don't want to be sad because he's still here with me and I should cherish every last moment that I have until he leaves him September.

Yeah I'm definitely going to be swarmed with school work but that doesn't help that fact that I'm going to be alone - all alone. I have my friends and family okay, but having him here around me makes me feel better. He understands me and he's the only one that can literally keep up with my "stubborness". I'm just so sad. I don't know how army wives can do this. Being married to the love of your life only having him to be deployed to battle for others. I think this is the only time I've actually opened up about this, about this situation, about my feelings. Thanks Blogspot. Haha. I guess I have you too when he leaves. There's really so many emotions running through me that I don't know which one to deal with first. I just hope that we work out for the better because there is no one that I'd rather be with other than you.

Yours truly,
Samantha