HAPPY HALLOWEEN :)! YAY! First time in ever Halloween is on a Saturday! Sweeeet. So many people are going clubbing today or like parties, but I'm not. Hehe, I'm taking my little cousins out for trick or treating with the BF. I'm dressing up :) But I'm not saaaayinggg hehe, let's just say it consists of wings, red, and black! Hahaha. Should be enough to figure it out ;) I'm so excitedddd! I love free candy and getting a heck load of it! YES 8)

So yesterday (friday) was an interesting day...so the day before yesterday me and bebs went apartment hunting..from like bathurst, to yonge & eglinton, to york mills, and don mills. We finally found a decent apartment at don mills, right infront of fairview mall. Checked it out and THOUGHT that we were going to grab it, which we were 'cause fausto had all the papers and payments done to give to the landlord the next day. So he calls her and she says that she sold it! MOTHERRRR !@#$...!! Poor babey was soo pissed offfff! I guess it was first come first serve that's why we lost it...so we had to do last minute apartment hunting...so STRESSFUL! But the good thing is that...he found one in the same area, but closer to the station (which he wants), aaand good thing fairview had a td bank so we did all the payments and shit, and finally...the apartment is officially HIS...or OURS :) Hahaha, SOOO STRESSFUL, I thought that he was going to lose the apartment 'cause it was obviously first come first serve and we couldn't place it on hold. Literally spent like an 1 1/2 hours just figuring out the whole payment situation!

Let's just hope I can get that job at Aritzia @ fairview 'cause it would be hella convenient for me 'cause beh is literally RIGHT across the mall :) YAY. Once I get a job, I can help babe buy stuff to fill his apartment upppp!

Anyways, this post is like a life story...hahaha...I'm going to get ready now! TOOOTLES!! I'll post pictures either tonight or tmrw :)! So I'm sitting infront of my laptop talking to my baby while waiting for my bestest to pick me up. We're going to mall rat at yorkdale :) haha, well not really, I have to return my leather jacket form Mango 'cause I find it too bulky and ish. I'm going to go get the one from Danier :) YEUUH. I'm starving, I havent eaten yet, shits. I wish these renovations in my house would be done already! GOOOOSH. I miss my beh, hope his foot is getting better - TIGER BOMG THAT SHIIIIIIZZZ! Haha.

So Stephanie gave me somewhat of good news...her friend Sammy who works at Aritzia told her that if we were interested I would let her know, SOO, yeah pretty dope I must say. They're hiring like crazy and giving good hours too. Hopefully that'll work out.

Anyways, I'm ouuuuuts 8) When everything seems so right, why does it all go wrong?
I honestly don't even know what I'm feeling right now...I just have so much on my mind that I don't even know where to start off...I think I'm just really exhausted from the weekend plus I'm ranting off with this excruciating pain in my head! I'm being such a drama queen. Blah. It just sucks. The weekend really opened my eyes and tested out our relationship. Honestly, I just wish you KNEW and UNDERSTOOD how much I DEEPLY care about you. I know you'll tell me that you know how much I love you, but I don't know if you TRULY understand! I'm so frustrated and it hurts me to make sure that you think I'm going to do something shady to you - which I know for a dead fact that I will never do something to hurt you. I know I may be the STUBBORNEST girl you've met but that doesn't mean I'll never stop loving you. You tell me its "hard to believe" and I don't what to say anymore for you to believe me when I say that I'll never ever hurt you. What makes you think I want to leave/hurt you?! I'm just scared 'cause I feel the same way you do. I know call me crazy, but I don't know whats making me feel this way. I just wished I had more assurance? (If that's even a word) GAH! Love makes you do crazy things. I'm telling you. AHHH.

Ever since we had our major argument, its been so different. (This part is about someone else now, just so you don't get confused) In all honesty, I don't like your girlfriend. I think that she brings out the worst in you when she should be bringing out the best in you. I just don't like her. She's...how do you say this....WHACK. Seriously. She's madd annoying too! It just feels so weird, I feel like we're so distant now 'cause you're always with her or have to bring her. I don't even know how to say this to you either. I can see you trying to talk to me but I always brush you off in a rude way. AH. I don't want us to be like those sibling that don't know shit about each others lives. I don't know how to fix this...

this shit is whack. fak. I hate headaches...someone pass me a shot of tequila so I can pass out :) Thanks.

On a side note,
what's with you?! I don't understand and it upsets me. So, I haven't blogged in about 4 dayssss! AH! So much catching up to do. I don't even remember what I did this weekend but it was too much! LOL okay so here's a breakdown of my weekend:

FRIDAY
- midterm
- beb picked me up from school
- went to eat chinese food
- met up with the gang and went to kris' place to drink :)
- crashed at his place with beh and waited till the ttc opened
- got home at 7am and woke up at 4pm

SATURDAY
- woke up at 4pm
- picked up beh from work at 630
- picked up other ppl and met others at union stn
- went to SCREEMERS! ogawd.
- dramadramadrama
- beh hurt his foot
- he couldnt walk LOL
- got to kennedy stn
- got my car
- went to mcdonalds at 130am
- ate at my place
- went to scarb gen hospital (WORSY HOSPITAL EVER) at 2am
- waited from 2am and got out at 930am
- 7.5 hours in the hospital, RIDICULOUS

SUNDAY
- IM ON NO SLEEP AT ALL...
- dropped beh all the way home
- got home took a shower and went to church
- buffet for lola's birthday
- got home at 4 and crashed...

and today is MONDAY..loool...whatevs, no school this week :) brupppp! Hmp, woke up at 9 today when I had set up my alarm clock to 10. Why? 'Cause freaking renovations in my house again - turns out my momma isn't just painting the house, she wants to redo the the flooring and the stairs and hand railsss, wow mom. It's going be take like 2-3 weeks now. JEEZ. Anyhoos, went to class and I forgot I had a math quiz today. Whatevs. I did alrights. Then I went and did my other mid-term online and got 80% :) Then after that another mid-term for critical thinking. Holy. I have one more to go! Environmental Science bring it onnnnnn......blah blah blah school is blaahh...

I missed my baybay today, and he texted me that he fixed his phone! YAY, it was just the charger all along...but yeah, finished my exam early so decided to surprise him with a dozen donuts...not going to lie, I wanted some for myself too 'cause I havent eaten yet =( But YEUUHHH, SURPRISE!!! Heheeee, okay no more blabbing...until tomorrow...

TOOTLES :) Unexpected, you walked into my life
And everyday you remind me...
"I can't wait for you to be my wife"

I never thought it would ever be me and you
But that night at the club when you kissed me on the lips
I knew this was going to lead us to something true

The way you hold me, and even the way you look into my eyes
Tells me, that all these wasted years
It should have been you to be that one perfect guy

As the days go by, our memories keep on mounting
We've been through so many things already
Six months and counting

Excited to see what the future plans for us
'Cause you and me baby,
Ain't no one can ever break this trust

I want you forever
Forever you and me
Fausto and Samantha
Together we will be

No matter what people say, no matter what they do
The only person that matters to me the most
Is my one and only boo

So believe me when I truly say I love you
Because everything I say to you
Is nothing but the truth

In the end, as selfish as it may sound
Its only you that I truly want
Not some other rebound

I love you baby, with all my heart
100% loving, from the very start
I give you my mind, body and soul
So please don't give this precious loving heart of mine,
A hurtful little hole Tell me why I couldn't sleep last night? I fell asleep at around 4:30 in the morning. My plan today was supposed to go to school to do my mid-term but I changed my mind and I'm doing my mid-term on my break tomorrow since i have like a 2 hour beak...yeah...whatevz. So that means 2 mid-terms tomorrow. No biggie 'cause I'm allowed a cheat sheet! I love cheat sheets.

I miss my BUBBIE. I couldn't even call him last night 'cause his cellphone isn't working 'cause it won't effing charge! Aaaaand it was too late to call his house =( URG, I was so upset I couldn't talk to him. So I ended up eating and watching tv. Yeah, I'm such a loser =/ BUUHH YEUHHH....Then I woke up this morning to like...what sounded like sanding in my living room...my house is currently under construction. My mom decided to paint the whole house this nice neutral yellow colour. So yeah..weird thing is...my mom is supposed to be here..I saw her this morning when she came into my room and put all this junk in it but then I don't know where she went? LOL. She left me with these asian strangers! Hahaha. S'all good. I'm going to be stuck in my cumputer room, and I can barely move. Jeez. Everything is just packed in here. Okay well...I'm pretty sure this post is long enough! Hehehe. PEACE OUT <3 What's really good? I'm loving off my blog..bahaha I'm such a loser =) SO my house is a complete M-E-S-S especially the living room/dining room. My mom wanted to paint the whole house so these people are coming in tomorrow to start painting my house. Shieeeez, it's going to be a week long project. Gash. So YEUP! Nicki Minaj is so G! Holyyyyy coooow, she's like the female Lil'Wayne...I know I'm so random but whatevz, loves her.

OKAAAAY, back to my studying! !@#$ing midterms >=| HI BABE :) If you're reading my blog like the creeper that you are, I just want to say that I MISS YOU! Sucks being without you 'cause I freaking miss you like every day of my freaking life. Honestly. Hahaha. Call me when you can! LOVE YOU! I've been a user of livejournal but I guess it's time to try something new. Blogspot huh? I created this account awhile back but never really took the time to write in it...but now I guess I have some time to write stuff down. Heh, I kinda miss the blogging scene. Okay, well, I have mid terms this week, so I guess I gotta get my studying started!