I need to get myself blogging again. I'm slacking...boo! I'm just so lazy to type out whatever I'm feeling..haha. I'M SUCH A LAZY BUMM! I want everything to come easy to me...honestly, this is my last semester at school and I have to apply to University soon because if I don't, I'll be a bum this September. FUCK. This is so stressing, like I know I want to become a teacher but there is so much work to be done, and I feel like I'm so useless, you know? I just want to be set with life and work. I still have University to go through, mother eff. I need to major in a course but I don't know where or what exactly my strengths are. Seriously, what's the point of me being here? What's my purpose, no emo or anything, but seriously...why am I here? What am I meant to do? I'm honestly lost with everything. I don't know what I'm good at. I clearly suck at everything, I'm stupid. I am. I really can't apply myself to anything I do. WHY IS THIS HAPPENING, I just want to finish and complete something so my parents will be happy. I want them to see how hard I've worked but I'm hardly working...I want them to see that I'm so grateful for their support. URG. This is so frustratingggg!!! I wish I would win the lottery or SOMETHING! I need a sign, I need some sort of sign to lead me towards the right path, I need something...I just don't know what...

...I just hope I can come to my senses sooner or later.